All Alone When the Men Go Home!

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I know, I know, Mae West is tougher than this...
so what happened?

Well once in a whiles,
When the boys get their fill and leave the saloon,
When I'm still in my room and no one around,
This dark cloud hovers over my head
And I feel like I'm the only one in the world
And its scary.
I'm bein alone. I really feel I'm alone!
And I starts to thinkin where will my meal come from when I'm through with the Saloon business.
And I starts to thinkin, aint nobody around when the boys go home
Who would I have? Nobody's helpin me...seems like I'm always helpin others...

I looked at the people's in my life,
I attracted them,
they give me a clue about my own life,
So I could see in them what was goin on in me
inside this tough heart
I saw they all live in isolation, like me
They're thinkin the same thing,,,
"there's nobody helpin me out"
and complainin that there's no help and they feel so alone.

Well enough of this!
BEING ALONE!
(abd going out and chasing after people for help, won't do it)
cause I'm still sending out the vibration..of I'M ALL ALONE!
So I've been walling myself in, by believing I'm alone!
Kind of like I was walled up in my last life in a concentration camp
and that camp wasn't helpin me to concentrate! for sure!

So I've been walling myself off so good,
that my new corset that would normally take four days to arrive,
still hadn't arrived after six weeks,
and my vodaphone internet card,too!
And I haven't had true love with a man in ten years!
OK, THE WALLS COMIN DOWN!

So no wonder help couldn't get to me
Or my corset either..

I wrote down all these old beliefs and made a little offering to Christ
I tore it up, threw it into the air under some trees and said,
"Christ take this burden from me, even though I havent been to church since my grandmother dragged me!"

And I was on my way to sit in the grass with my horse nearby,
when a family of rescued dogs rushed over to me in glee.
The biggest one jumped into my face and nipped me with such glee,
Almost knocked me over!

So I am now christened, Annie Mae, BEING KNOCKED OVER BY LOVE!

footnote: could have another spell of bein alone. if I does, I'm seein myself (with my inner vision) as the hottest flame around...anybody's welcome at my door! Kind of like the Statue of Liberty holdin that torch!

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SETTLING FOR LESS THAN DIAMONDS

See the two drivers in the seats of the van. Annie Mae West did her uncustomary thing of flipping back and forth. It's called 'settling for less'. Sometimes she was the bear, sayin what she really wanted, and sometimes she was the rabbit, shrinkin up and holdin back.

Ya see in August Annie Mae, that's me....bought a campervan, a 1988 Westfalia, and it looked pretty good inside...the part I could see. But dun gonit, the seller sold me a van that needed some major internal surgery and the seller didn't tell me! Now Annie Mae doesn't know too much about surgery, especially since she comes from the land of the Wild West, where we got around on horses and handled a heart attack with a flask of whiskey!

Well Annie Mae started complainin to her cowtown SACAT friends sayin...HE CHEATED ME! HE CHEATED ME! HE CHEATED ME!
Well I asked the wrong group of friends, cause what came back was...
YOU ATTRACTED THAT! WHOM HAVE YOU CHEATED?

OH LORDY..DON'T PEN ME IN LIKE THAT! NOW YOU GOT MY HAIRS RAISED! ME! CHEATED!

Well bein Annie Mae, I did another uncustomary thing and holed up for a couple of days, no make-up, no diamonds, nothing...just my ego and me, bein naked. And I wrote where I had cheated, now I saw that cheated was actually witholding some important information...

So I listed all these things where I'd dun that. And I saw when I witheld information, people didn't know how to help me or how to participate, and there was this suspicion comin from em.

THEN! I saw how I settled for less. I REALLY WANTED AN AUTOMATIC CAMPERVAN and I got a standard shifting kind instead.

THIS WAS AN AMAZING THING TO REALIZE, CAUSE WHERE I'M GOIN I'M ASKING FOR A LOT MORE THAN A CAMPERVAN. I'M ASKIN FOR A PROFITABLE,SELF-SUSTAINING,CRAFTING AND EDUCATIONAL COMMUNITY.

SO I DECLARED A NEW BEEING: BEEING THE QUEEN OF OPPORTUNITY!
I CAN NOW ASK FOR EXACTLY WHAT I TRULY WANT!

And just so you know, the campervan named Prince, I'm in love with him.
NOW COMES THE POSTSCRIPT! WHEN I WOKE UP IN MY CAMPERVAN THIS MORNING, ANOTHER PIECE OF THE STORY CAME OUT!

I REALIZED THAT WHAT I REALLY WANTED WAS AN AUTOMATIC CAMPERVAN, RIGHT! AND I SETTLED FOR A STANDARD.

WELL, WHEN I ASKED FOR FUNDING TO PAY FOR THE VAN, I WANTED THE FUNDER TO GIFT ME...BUT IN THE CONVERSATION, THE FUNDEE ASKED, "IS THIS TO BE A LOAN?" AND THAT'S WHEN I SHRIVELLED BACK AND SAID, "YES, THIS IS A LOAN."

I WAS BEING UNDESERVING...
ARE YALL FAMILIAR WITH THAT?
HOW IN THE HECK, DID I,
ANNIE MAE WEST BECOME UNDESERVING?

WELL IT'S ALL OVER NOW...
I'M , IN THIS MOMENT THE ONLY ANNIE MAE I'LL EVER KNOW..
YA HEAR ME!

I'M DESERVING!
I HEAR DESSERT IN THAT WORD!
DESSERT COMING,
FOR THE DESERVING FROG PRINCESS, ANNIE MAE WEST!
WATCH OUT FELLAS!

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SO MANY MEN, SO LITTLE TIME

Tonight I'm going to have a private talk with my women friends. Now I know I've chased most of you away, but I gotta tell you, I'm a woman who means business. Sometimes you may have to take the medicine I'm givin ya with a sour look on ya faces. Ya see, I've been discoverin that I'm a catalyst. Ya know what I mean! like a catalytic converter! ask your men friends!

I don't really know what I'm catalyzing most of the time. I just dig in and see what pops up to the surface. So recently, a friend is talkin about her husband and wishin he would just accept her the way she is. And I told her, I don't know why I'm here, but I'm catalyzing something. The next thing you know, out of the blue she asks to chant with me...know what kirtan is? bet you never thought Mae West would sit like a yogini and chant kirtan! Ha! Why do you think I have so many men!

So I don't say much to her about the chanting. We just do it! During the chant I can tell she has disappeared. How do I know? Because I feels it! It feels like total stillness, like between the two of us, no one is there...no mental gyrations, well mostly not.

And afterwards, you should see the big smile spread across her face like she just ate a banana!

She said, "I was in the light! I disappeared!" I said,"I know you did."

"And you know what I realized about my man?" she says. "He's fine the way he is. If he's not accepting of what I'm doing, it's OK. If he doesn't take interest in doing what I want to do, it's OK. I'm giving myself all the acceptance I need!

And off she went, with stars in eyes, and fresh young energy, to spend the weekend with her new husband, HE'S NEW SINCE SHE HAD HER NEW DISCOVERY!

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GOODNESS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT

This title tempts me into writing about being in trouble. I've had my days of being bad and I'm bad, only when I say I'm bad. I think this week's column will have you all breathing a sigh of relief, cause you might be thinkin you're bad when you're in trouble. And that's up to you, fellas.

Take for example the other day, buying a ticket at the machine, for the underground subway in Munich. I was really tryin to be a first class citizen and buy a ticket like the rest of the folks. I even attracted a suited up gentleman,who had never used one of those machines to try to help me out. (Annie Mae doesn't miss many chances to let others help her out!)

We selected a one way ticket to town and put the exact coins in and the machine shot them out the other end! Hmmmm! Surprisin, considering German technology.
I thought it must be us doin something wrong, since German machines are right. So we try it again, and the coins come out again. No ticket.

So then another prospective gentlemen comes along and he thinks he can get the machine to work. And he KNOWS how to use the machine!

So I figure, Annie Mae did everything she could. Even tried two machines and no ticket. I thanked the gentleman and released them from their duties.

So the next choice was go for free! In days past, Annie Mae would have gone through ticketless feeling horrible and guilty. Not this time! I wrapped my furs around me and sailed past the ticket reading machines and jumped on that underground train bound for glamourous downtown Munich!

Angels must have already paid for me!

THE DAY I WAS THROWN OUT OF THE SEMINAR

Not surprisin,aint it? Annie Mae getting kicked out of the room in front of hundreds of people? Well, Annie Mae isn't doin no tiptoin!

Ya see I brought my grand nephew to this seminar. This little nephew is four years old and he brought his crayons and paper so he'd stay quiet. Well it didn't take but a few minutes before those crayons turned into weapons for Spiderman and his alliances.

So I tend to be occupied when I'm around my little nephew, Bryson. Ya see, I got to keep track of who was the last boyfriend I promised to take gambling and which one I lied to about my Herkimer Diamonds, and which one I promised I'd let him come upstairs. So Bryson wasn't payin me much attention when I'd come around. I'd say,"Hi fella!" And he'd turn and look the other direction.

So the day he and I were asked to leave the seminar room, cause Spiderman was gettin a little rambunctious, I took him into the hall, thinkin, now what? I just sat there watchin him with his fantasy play. He was making a lot of shootin sounds..reminded me of my saloon. I started thinkin..you know how thinkin gets ya...so I was thinkin..
he's sayin the word 'kill' every other sentence....so I was disapprovin..

Then the lights went on inside my Annie Mae head..he's not being violent..he's being imaginative, the way boys do, the way all my boys used to do before they had to start lookin grown=up. And you would have been so surprised to see Annie Mae take up play with Bryson...shootin away..we were havin play warfare that was so noisy, they might of kicked us out of that place,too!

Since that time, Bryson and I have a special relationship. He'll come to me about anything. He'll pull me aside to play or show me something special he found.

Annie Mae West Speaks on Attracting Love!

So this is it. I'm supposed to write something here. The boys told me you're wantin some magic potion for love, so I guess I gotta give it to ya. Now, I'm not pretendin to be miss pretty peaches and cream. I know you're lookin at me like a star, a real movie star. And that's how I want ya to see me, ya hear me?

And you're probably wonderin what's underneath all my jewels and finery. Well, I've been through some romances, partners, you name it. Got a family,too. I thought I could just get by with being the nice girl, looking like I've got it all together. As a matter of fact, my sis told me recently,"Annie, I always thought you were the smooth one, the cool one. I didn't know you suffered. I was jealous of you."

So here's my secret to attracting love:
1.When you're feeling emotional,upset,not-listened to: recognize that it's your own creation..it comes from you.(read Byron Katie's "Loving What Is") I know that's a hard thing to do.

just a few days ago,
I got back into my old complainin
I swore that this man in my life wasn't listenin to me
plus a lot of other people
it even looked that way...
on the phone,i felt ignored in the conversation
didn't get to do much of the talkin
and got interrupted a lot
now that's hard for Mae West!
who's gotta make her point!

well this man happens to be a good friend,
and he knows this phenomenom in himself,
so when I told him I felt I wasn't listened to,
he said, "Annie Mae, I know this may be difficult to hear,
"you can't be blaming someone else out there."
"I've found when I blame someone else I loose my power"
"and besides there is no one else!"
everything, everything,everything..I HAVE created!
so , You've created "not being listened to"

WHEW!!!!
I was slightly embarrassed,
then I said to myself, "I'm loving myself.
"i'm acknowleging myself for allowing the process to unfold"
"this is good stuff! better than chewin tobacca!"
in fact, I may just dump the rest of my stash in the outhouse!"

so after sharing my soft-hearted story...
are you feeling my victory?
it's mighty attractive...
now I can truly say to my friend, "I love you and I love myself and I'm the one responsible for feeling listened to!"
Whew! I'm listened to, because I say so!
Now that's my stardom! Mae West,here! Watch out boys!
Don't let love pass you by!